Samu Haber

I have a new favourite moment of the show. It always used to be a song, some chorus, a jump at a certain point or the ending fireworks. Now I have found something totally new. 
 
Just like most of us, I’ve never been the best guy on the planet being present and being in this very moment. My mind is good at drifting and it easily takes me to the future or to the past and it seems like it’s trying to avoid being here and now. Of course there are always things in the horizon we should be aware of, but that sometimes makes us miss what we have right now. And if we’d just blindly sail in the present, our ships would all sail on the rocks and we’d sink. But the more I’m able to be present, the better I seem to feel. In everyday life I use tricks like meditation and breathing techniques to fool my mind a bit, but on stage I can’t do that as it would be a bit strange if I’d start levitating or “omming” there or something. 
 
Having almost twenty shows behind this summer, It’s given me and us a chance to be a bit of passengers on this beautiful boat too. And then comes my new favourite moment. It's never the same song and it changes every night. But when I get there, I just stand on stage and I play my part and breathe. Like last night. “Samu, nobody knows if this will be the only time you’ll ever play in Ebern Germany. Appreciate it and take it all as it comes. You’re so lucky to be right here.” I know this sounds like a power sentence poster on some “Live Laugh Love” beach café, but to me it feels so good and I’ve never had it this deep until this summer. And every time after that moment I feel like nothing can hurt or stop me. Feels so safe.
 
Thank you for coming to us each night and for being the way you’ve been. I wish you get some of the love back. Your smiling faces and sometimes seeing some of you scream the chorus through your tears is unbelievable. Playing some Sunrise Avenue songs also takes me to memories where I wrote the song or on past tours and the mixture of feelings is hard to describe. These songs too are such an important part of me and I could never leave them. For the next tour somewhere in the future I might take some more on the set, but now it feels so perfect as it is. I also have to give huge respect for Risto, Tomas and Janne how they’ve performed them. We’ve talked openly about the past too and the way the boys have respected history and carried me through each of these songs says much about them all as human beings. You are such amazing guys all of you. Thank you for being with me. 
 
I love the fact that on these fields this summer there are all kinds of people. Different ages and backgrounds. And the children. Imagine these little fighters. First someone 12 years old sees through all the trouble cueing for first row in between all the tall and big people around them, then being there the whole evening and singing to every song like it’s the anthem of the universe. So many times my heart has felt like it’s in a smoothie blender and my throat felt like air doesn’t flow. The best feeling. And their moms and dads or other trusted adults protecting them from the crowd pressure while also clapping their own hands. The way they look at you and each other too. There’s so much good in the world.
 
Thank you for singing “Vehicle” with me every night and for being so cool about it. I try not to put the microphone in front of anyone who I think would feel uncomfortable singing to a huge sound system. I fully understand if someone turns their head slightly away. That’s actually very cute if it happens. I’ve had zero uncomfortable moments with you down there and I want to thank you for respecting my boundaries in every possible way.
 
And the dancing at “Hollywood Heels.” It’s such a great moment every night and you are all so brave climbing up there with us. I would NEVER have the guts to do something like that so spontaneously at someone else’s show. Thank you for understanding that the moment choosing the dancers is always crazy chaotic where I can barely see who’s holding which sign and I’ve lost count a long time ago who danced already and who didn’t. I try to treat everyone equally as you are all equal to me. Doesn’t matter if it’s your first or 1000th show or if you have a sign or not.
 
I barely remember how it feels to be a support act to someone, but everyone opening the nights have done an amazing job this summer. Thank you Chanin, Frida Gold, Jennifer and Myle for being how you’ve been. It’s also heartwarming to see how the crowds have welcomed you. I love watching how you push towards your dreams song by song. Knowing there’s no guarantees but that’s not the point we’re on stage. Sending an extra music business angel to all of you.
 
I’m so happy to be home. This bubble is the best there is, but it’s also good to let go of it for a few days now. I might just stare at my walls for a few days or I’ll end up posting a thousand pictures on IG from the trip, I’ll do what feels right. I do hope it’s boating weather in Helsinki and I can go out with friends a bit. Next weekend we got three shows and the thought of flying back to my big guitars and my crew boys and girls feels so good too. 
 
Good night everyone and thank you again for the first half. 
I have my finger on the “Hapa system swich off” button. 
After pressing it, it’s gonna ask “Are you sure you wanna switch off?”
I know what I’ll answer  <3
 
Big love, 
 
Samu