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Good Boy
I really thought I had seen it all. Really. And I thought I had already experienced everything on stage one man ever could. Years ago. I’m so glad to be so wrong once again.
My smart ring says I slept 4 hours 45 minutes last night. I just couldn’t fall asleep after arriving at the hotel from the Bassum show and I was just lying on my bed going through video clips and memories from the last two nights. Listening to the summer rain through the window. I didn’t want to fall asleep because I was afraid the boiling feeling of gratitude might fade a bit during my sleep and I wanted to ride that wave for some extra hours. Finally I closed my eyes sometime after 3AM but I woke up two hours before the alarm and I still had the same stupid smile on my face.
You people have no idea. Really you don’t. You seemed to have fun these first shows too, but what went through my soul on stage this weekend, I don’t recall a similar experience ever before. Everything just feels so right and so true. And the way you are. I don’t know if I should call you fans, ticket buyers, friends or audience, but whatever it is that is out there in front of the stage, it’s coated with something so beautiful and healing that it breaks my whole life into a trillion pieces. Even sitting here on this Embraer 190 airplane, I feel this warm pulse in my fingers and in my toes. My chest feels stadium size as my heart is expanding to new limits and my throat muscles tell me they’re ready if I need to cry. I wish everyone could feel like this once in their lives. There wouldn’t be any wars.
The summer start has been better than any day dream and I’m really looking forward to continuing this summer camp for all the weeks and months ahead. We all are in this flying Finnair tube.
When I die someday (hopefully not soon as I really like it here), my wish right before I take my final breath, is to have a moment to go back in memories to the most meaningful moments of my life. To digest the “highlights” just once again before I go. I haven’t decided what those top moments are yet, but one candidate for the last minute medley could be last night as I walked off stage and sat in the car to the backstage. My eyes were wet and I couldn’t speak. Then someone I love very much touched my arm and said “Good Boy…”
There are things in this world I’d like to change for the better. Actually many. But there is also so much good and so much love out there. And you people are a huge part of the beautiful and the bright. See you in 11 days in Tollwod, Munich.
I love you all <3
Photo @emilyrtr